Renesmee

Cullen
By
Redhead74
R.P.O.V.

May 17.
I was so happy. I was walking along side the man that I loved, and I
knew that he loved me to. He had loved me since the day I was born.
I had to laugh a bit. Could anyone be as happy as I was right now?
We stood outside my parents’ cottage, going to tell them the best
news ever.
I wondered what Edward was going to say. He'd throw a fit most probably,
but
he'd understand. He knows how I feel about Jake.
At the same time Jake stopped in front of the door, kissing me softly
and said: "Are you ready?"
I nodded, and we went inside.
My parents sat in the living room. My father holding my mother, as
they were watching a movie. They looked so much in love, and I
wished that that would be me and Jake looking like this after ten
years of marriage. Still so hung up on each other.
To give my parents some privacy, I had moved up to the main house.
I took my father’s old room. The others didn't seem to mind. They all
loved having me there.
I also had a room in my granddad Charlie’s house.
I went to see him several times a week. He had been shocked to see
how fast I grew, but murmuring to himself: Need to know, need to
know.... I knew that he was always happy to see me.
I looked to Jake, and then to my parents again. Opened my mouth
and said. "Edward, Bella. Jacob and I have something to tell you. We
are getting married".
My father looked furious and my mother shocked. They must have
seen this coming. They always knew that this was going to happen to
Jake and me. It was destiny.
Then I heard my father say: " Jacob, may I talk to you outside for a
moment please?"
I got worried and said: "Edward. If you want to say something, you'll
have to say it to us both."
My father just glanced at me, and then I saw Jake nodding at him,
and they both walked outside.
I looked at my mother. Needing her to reassure me that everything
would turn out fine, and that she would support me. She of all people
had to realize what I felt. She had gone through the same thing.
Married at the age of eighteen. To the man that she could not live
without. Why couldn't she see that I felt the same way? I wanted to be
with Jake. I needed to be with him. He was the love of my life, the
love of my existence.
"Bella. What's going on? I thought you would be happy for us. You
knew that this would happen all along, so it should not come as a
surprise to you".
I looked into her eyes and she said: "My beautiful Renesmee. I know
that you love Jacob, and that he loves you, but we thought that you
would wait a few years before you got married. It's not like you don't
have the time..."
I saw her freeze, suddenly thinking of something. What? What made
her look like that? I suddenly understood. She thought we had to get
married so soon because I was pregnant.
"Bella, no..." I said, "I'm not pregnant. Jake and I haven’t even....." I
stopped. This was embarrassing. Talking to my mother about my non
existing sexlife. It could have been worse. It could have been my
father "asking" this.
It wasn't like the first time we'd talked about this. As soon as Jake and
I got more serious, and our feelings grew into love, my mother had
taken me out for a ride, and explained to me about "The Birds and
The Bees". About how it was ok for a girl to say no, and that it was
my body, so no one could force me into doing something I did not
want.
She spoke again:"Sweetheart. I'm sorry. I just couldn't understand the
reason for you to be so hasty.
"But Bella, we're in love. You of all people should understand. It was
the same for you and Edward".
I saw my mother’s face as she came to understand. I saw the love in
her face, and knew that she would do everything in her power to help
me. And so I calmed down.
"Congratulations" my mother said. "I'm so happy for you. Of course I'll
stand by your side, and help you plan your wedding. We'll have so
much fun. We'll also have to tell the rest of the family. Your aunt Alice
will have a ball with this. You should have seen her before my
wedding. She is a great wedding planner, so we will definitely have to
ask her to help us.
My mother looked at me amused. I couldn't understand why.
"Why are you laughing mama?"
She told me about my aunt Alice not being able to see this, and I
understood . I laughed with her.
Suddenly both my mother and I stiffened. Jake and my father came
in, and they looked really serious. What had happened out there in
the garden?

B.P.O.V.

May 17.
Edward and I was sitting on the sofa watching a movie when Nessie
and Jake came into the living room. They both had a big smile upon
their faces.” Bella, Edward. Jacob and I have something to tell you.”
I suddenly felt Edward squeezing my hand hard, and he looked like
he wanted to murder someone. He already knew what they were
going to say.
I looked upon my beautiful daughters face, and saw the joy in her
eyes. What could she possibly say that made Edward react like this.
“We are getting married...........”
So that was it. At first I didn't know what to say. I sat there for a
couple of seconds. For the first time in many years I didn't know what
to say to my daughter or my best friend. I looked at Edward. He had
now pulled himself back together, and said: “Jacob. May I talk with
you outside for a moment please?”
Renesmee suddenly looked worried.” Edward”, she said, “If you want to
say something, you'll have to say it to us both”. Edward merely
glanced at her, and then looked at Jacob. He nodded, and the two
guys walked outside.
“Bella, what is going on? I thought you would be happy for us. You
knew that this would happen all along, so it should not come as a
surprise to you.”
“My beautiful Renesmee”, I said. “I know that you love Jacob, and that he
loves you. But we thought that you would wait a few more years
before you got married. It's not like you don’t have the time”.
Suddenly I froze. I had to think for a moment. She couldn't be, could
she? Pregnant? Is that why they had to get married so fast?
She must have seen the shock on my face, and understood what I
was thinking.” Bella, no.... I'm not pregnant. Jake and I haven’t even....”
She broke off. I could understand that this was difficult for her to say.
Her cheeks reddened, and she looked down.
“Sweetheart, I'm sorry. I just couldn't understand the reason for you to
be so hasty”.
“But Bella, we're in love. You of all people should understand. It was
the same for you and Edward”.
We had told her the story of our engagement and marriage, but not
the whole reason. Not that I wanted to have one last human
experience before I became a Vampire. Not that I wanted to make
love to her father before I was changed.
We simply told her that we were in love, and that we wanted to get
married so that we could be together forever.
And at that moment I understood her. I knew what she was feeling,
and why she wanted to do this. I also knew that I would support her in
every way that I could.
I would talk to Edward about this, and make him understand. He'd
have to, for Nessie's sake.
She watched me as I was thinking all of this, and her face became
calmer. She knew that I was on her side now.
“Renesmee “, I said, “Congratulations. I'm so happy for you. Of course I'll
stand by your side, and help you plan your wedding. We'll have so
much fun. We'll also have to tell the rest of the family. Alice will have a
ball with this. You should have seen her before my wedding. She is a
great wedding planner, so we will definitely have to ask her to help us”.
Actually I was a bit amused, because Alice had no idea what was
going on. She couldn't see werewolves and not Renesmee either. So
she had no idea about this.
I was pleased. For the first time I knew something that she could not
see. Something big. A wedding.
I laughed. Renesmee looked at me, a little puzzled.” Why are you
laughing Bella”?
I told her, and she busted out in laughter to.
As we were sitting there laughing, Edward and Jacob came in. They
both looked very serious. Renesmee and I both stiffened. What had
happened outside? Why did they both look so angry?

E.P.O.V.

May 17.
I was sitting on the sofa holding my beautiful wife Bella while I tried to
concentrate on the movie we were supposed to watch. I wanted to
pick her up, and carry her into our bedroom. She made me crazy. I
couldn't stop wanting her. The way she looked, smelled, talked and
walked. Even the way she looked when she was mad at me, not that
it happened very often, I wanted her.
I was just about to suggest that we could take a late night swim. I
always knew what happened after. We'd make love. For some reason
she got very excited when we went swimming. I had asked her about
that once, but she had just smiled at me, and said that I would have
to figure it out for myself.
Suddenly I could hear my daughters’ thoughts.
“I wonder what Edward is going to say. He'll throw a fit most probably,
but he'll understand.
He knows how I feel about Jake”.
They came into the living room.
So much for my plans I thought, but then could hear Jacob thinking:
“I'm going to marry her. I want her, and need her. I am sick of waiting.
All I want to do, is to hold her in my arms, make love to her, and
never let her go. He just can't say no. I'll do it anyway”.
And then she said it out loud...
“Bella, Edward. Jacob and I have something to tell you”.
I squeezed Bella's hand. I was furious.
We're getting married.
I pulled myself back together and said:
“Jacob. May I talk with you outside for a moment please”?
Jacob was weary now. He looked worried, and so did Renesmee. But
then she said:
“Edward. If you want to say something, you'll have to say it to us both”.
I just looked at her for a second, and then I heard Jacob's mind.
“Of course Edward. I'll come, but don't be mad. I'll explain everything
once we're outside”.
I nodded, and followed my soon to be son -in-law outside.
When we came outside, Jacob looked at me, and started to speak.
“Edward. I really love her, and I want to make her happy. She is my
whole life.
I don't want to live without her”.
“Is there another reason for your haste Jacob”? I said.
My voice was dark and threatening.” Have you done anything to my
daughter?
Anything that made this marriage-thing urgent”?
Jacob looked at me for a while, and then he understood what I meant.
“Are you asking me if I got your daughter pregnant Edward”? He said
this in a questioning voice.
At the same time I could hear his mind.
“I haven’t even seen her without her clothes. How was I supposed to
get her pregnant. I have always been careful around her. Never
wanted to frighten her. Of course I want to make love to her. She has
got some nice curves, and the way she looks at me sometimes. I just
want to rip of all her clothes and.....”
“JAKE... “I said, my voice was murderous now.
“Keep your thoughts to yourself”.
I didn't want to see my sweet, still innocent daughter like that.
Jacob looked embarrassed. Sorry, he said. He was blushing.
I had to pull myself back together. I could not murder him. My wife
and daughter loved him too much.
And to be quite honest, I liked him myself. I had always known that
this time would come, but not so soon.
“Jake, why now? Why so soon? Don't you think it's a good idea to wait
a few more years. You're in no rush are you”?
He looked at me. Edward he said, looking a bit stubborn now.” We
want to start our life together. We have actually waited for a year, just
to give you and Bella more time. We thought that you knew that this
was bound to happen. I love her with all my heart, and want to be
with her all the time. I want to be the father of her children, and I want
to do it now. I know that she feels the same way.
We will do it. With or without your blessing”.
I felt my stomach jolt when he said that he wanted to be the father of
her children, but I pulled myself together again. I must not kill him. I
must not kill him I chanted to myself.
We'll have to sit down all four of us and discuss this, I said, and he
nodded. Thinking to himself how easy he got off. He should have only
known how close I was to beating him for loving my "little" girl.
But he was also aware that I wasn't smiling, so when we walked back
to the living room, we were both serious and a bit tense.
Then I saw the faces of my two beautiful girls with their happy smiles,
and I knew that all was lost. My daughter would get married soon,
and my wife was set on helping her.
I didn't need to read my wife's mind to see what she was thinking.
As that thought came to my mind, I could feel Bella opening her mind
to me, and let me see the conversation that she had with Renesmee.
I nodded, walked over to her, kissed her cheek and whispered:
“I'll tell you what he said later...” She smiled. She wanted this to
happen. In a way I did to. But Jacob was so smug. He needed to
learn a lesson. Hmmmm. Maybe, just maybe I should give Nahuel a
call......

J.P.O.V.

May 17.
I was walking down the path to the cottage with my Nessie. We were
going to tell Bella and Edward that we were going to get married. I
was finally going to get the woman I loved. She was my first and only
true love.
Okay, so I had been in love with Bella, but comparing that with what I
felt for Nessie, it had just been an infatuation, a small crush. A boy’s
first love. This was serious...
Nessie, my beautiful and talented fiancée loved me to. I was the most
lucky man to walk this earth.
So now we were going to announce our engagement. I wasn't quite
sure about how they would take it, but Nessie was so sure that they
would accept it, that she had calmed me down. I was finally ready to
tell the whole world that I was going to be with my Nessie. We were
going to be married.
Suddenly we were at the cottage. As we stopped in front of the door, I
kissed her and asked:
“Are you ready?” She nodded. We walked inside.
Bella and Edward was sitting on the sofa. They looked so happy
together. I was jealous. I wanted that to be me and Nessie. I wanted it
bad. Bella looked so content, and Edward, he looked, well he looked
like he wanted to pick Bella up, and make love to her.
Then they noticed that we were there.
Nessie looked at me, then at her parents, and then at me again. She
said:
“Bella , Edward. Jacob and I have something to tell you.
We're getting married”.
I looked at Edward and Bella. She looked shocked, but he looked
furious. I was sure that he wanted to kill me. But why? They knew
that this was coming eventually.
Edward looked at me and said:
“Jacob, may I talk with you outside for a moment please”?
Nessie got up and seemed worried. “Edward”, she said. “If you want to
say something, you'll have to say it to us both”. Edward only glanced
at her. I had to calm him down.
“Of course Edward”, I thought. “I'll come, but don't be mad. I'll explain
everything once we're outside”.
He nodded at me, and we walked out of the room.
When we came outside, I spoke:
“Edward, I really love her, and I want to make her happy. She is my
whole life. I don't want to live without her”.
That is saying it mildly I thought.
“Is there a reason for your haste Jacob”? He looked angry. “Have you
done anything to my daughter that made this marriage-thing urgent”?
I stirred at him. What did he mean?
Had I done anything to Nessie that was so serious that we HAD to
get married?
Suddenly I understood.
“Are you asking me if I got your daughter pregnant Edward”?
Then I thought to myself:
I haven't even seen her without her clothes of. How was I supposed
to get her pregnant?
I have always been careful around her. Never wanted to frighten her.
Of course I want to make love to her. She has got some nice curves,
and the way she looks at me sometimes.. I just want to rip of all her
clothes and.....
Suddenly I heard Edward say:
“Jake. Keep your thoughts to yourself”.
His voice was dark, and he looked like he wanted to rip me apart.
Limb by limb.
I was embarrassed. My cheeks blushed. My soon to be father-in-law
could hear my thoughts. The intimate sexy thoughts I had about his
daughter.
“Jake”, he said.” Why now? Why so soon? Don't you think it's a good
idea to wait a few more years. You're in no rush are you”?
I looked down at him now.
“Edward. We want to start our life together. We have actually waited
for a year, just to give you and Bella more time. We thought that you
knew that this was bound to happen. I love her with all my heart, and
I want to be with her all the time. I want to be the father of her
children, and I want to do it now. I know she feels the same way to.
We will do it. With or without your blessing”.
Would he kill me now?
“We'll have to sit down all four of us and discuss this” he said. I
nodded. He had accepted this. I was happy. This was really going to
happen. I was finally going to marry my beloved Nessie.
I could see that he wasn't smiling, so I pulled myself together. Was
he planning something? He was the type of person that could do it.
We had been there before. But that time it had been about Bella. We
both played dirty, but he was in a league of his own. I was young and
foolish then. Now that I had had a few more years to learn about this
game, I was better prepared. He wasn't going to get off so easy this
time. Now I knew that the girl I wanted, wanted to be with me too.
She would say no to everyone else but me...
So when we walked back into the house. We were both serious end
anxious.
Both Bella and Nessie looked so happy. I knew that Bella was on our
side then. She would help us make Edward understand and accept
this.
My mind wandered off again. I only saw my beautiful Nessie. The way
she looked at me. The way she touched me. She was ready to take
the next step to. Maybe, just maybe, we would make love tonight. I
wanted it. I wanted to take of all her clothes. Kiss every part of her
body. To caress her gently and I wanted to satisfy her. I wanted to
hear her scream my name when I made her come. Because with her
satisfaction, came my own. I just knew it. We were a perfect match.

E.P.O.V.

May 24.
It had been a week since Jacob and Renesmee had told us that they
were going to get married. A week of planning. Just as soon as they
left, I had told Bella that I needed to be alone for a while to think. She
said that she understood. She was so sweet. She would say and do
anything for me. She was so unselfish.
She could have said no, that we needed to talk about this. But she
understood that I needed to think this over on my own first.
I took the Ferrari out for a drive. After a few minutes I pulled the car
over. Picked up my phone, and dialed Nahuels number.
Since our encounter with the Volturi all those years ago, Nahuel had
been a frequent guest in our home. He came to see us at least twice
a year, and then he stayed for at least a month at a time.
He had watched Renesmee's growth with curious eyes. Sometimes I
could hear him thinking fondly of her.
When she became sixteen his behavior towards her changed. He
treated her like a grown up.
He fell in love with her to.
I didn't know how to feel about it. On the one hand I liked that she
had more than one choice, but I still was her father, and to me, she
would always be my little girl.
At that moment I understood what Charlie must have felt like when he
saw me and Bella together. The pain of knowing that you would loose
your little girl to another man soon. She was becoming a woman.
So I had a problem on my hands. Renesmee had spent all her time
with Jacob when she had the opportunity, and that was quite often.
When Nahuel came to see us, I could see it in her eyes that she liked
him to. They had a special bond. They were both half breeds. Not
that any of us saw her that way, but this was something that puzzled
her. So every time Nahuel came for a visit, she divided her time
between her two friends.
It had only been a couple of months since Nahuel had left us the last
time.
I could only imagine the surprise in his voice when I asked him to
come for another visit. He happily agreed, said that he just wanted to
sort out something, but then he would be able to come within a week.
Today I was going to the airport to pick him up. No one knew that he
was coming, except from Bella. She hadn't known why he was
coming so soon, but she said that she was always happy to see him.
This time she was a bit surprised , because I had told her to clean the
guestroom in the cottage, so that it was ready when he came. He
usually stayed up in the main house.
She had looked at me, and knew that I was up to something. Over
the years it had become almost impossible to lie to her. It was like
she had a sixth scent. She saw right through me. I started to lie, but
she just looked at me and said: “Edward Cullen. You are going to tell
me the truth. There is something going on, and I want to know what it
is”.
So there I stood, knowing that she wouldn't give up until I had told her
everything.
“Well” I said. “This might sound a bit crazy, but please try to see things
from my point of view”.
I told her about my plan to get Nahuel to come here, to see what he
would do about the situation.
To scare Jacob a bit, since he was so sure of himself.
I wanted Renesmee to have options. To make her really look at the
choice she had made, and to let her figure out if she had made the
right one. That is why I wanted him to stay at the cottage. So that we
could keep an eye on them.
Bella didn't really like my plan at first, but after a while she had seen it
the way that I did. We wanted to make sure that our daughter had
made the right choice. And it was her choice. We just wanted to make
sure that Jacob was the one that she wanted to spend the rest of her
life with.
When I got to the airport, I only had to wait for a few minutes before
Nahuel came over to me. He looked so happy to be here. I was
happy to see him to, and I knew that the next few weeks would
become very interesting. I could read what he was thinking...

N.P.O.V.

May 24.
I was really surprised when Edward gave me a call. It had only been
two months since I last saw them. But I was happy that he wanted me
around.
I really looked forward to see Renesmee again to. She had grown up
to become a very beautiful woman.
I had fallen in love with her, and was happy now that I had the
opportunity to spend more time with her.
Every time I came to see them, Renesmee and I spent a lot of time
together. We could talk about everything. I kind of felt like a teenager
around her, and I liked it. We had some intense conversations. She
wanted to know about my life. Not just parts of it, but everything.
The way I had felt the day the Volturi had killed my father. The way I
felt about not having a mother. The way we both felt about being half
vampire and half human.
This was our special bond. This is what tied us together. She had
soon become one of my closest friends.
She was extremely intelligent, and seemed much older than her
eighteen years. In more ways she was more intelligent than me, but I
made up for it with experience. It was easy to love her.
I knew that Bella and Edward had seen how close we were, and that I
was falling in love with their daughter. But they still wanted me
around. I took this as a good sign. If I ended up with marrying their
daughter, they wouldn't object. So that was one of the things that I
thought of while I was walking off the plane.
Did Edward have a special reason for me to come now? Was this
really about Renesmee?
After a few minutes I saw him standing there waiting for me. “Hello
Edward”, I said, “it's nice to see you again”. We shook hands.
“Nahuel. How nice of you to come. As you know, it's Carlisle's birthday
soon. We are throwing him a surprise party, and he would be so
happy to see you there.
I know that Bella can't wait to see you, but Renesmee will be so
surprised. She doesn't know that you are coming”.
My heart fell a bit. She didn't know that I was coming. Would she find
the time out to spend some of it with me, or was it all about Jacob
now?
I knew that he was in love with her to. I was jealous. Especially with
him for being able to spend so much time with her. I only had two
months in a whole year. Not even that much. She divided her time
between us when I was here.
This time it was going to be different I swore to myself. This time I
was going to monopolize her time.
Maybe she could see me the way that I saw her. I was going to
romance her. To take her out. I was even going to ask her to come
home with me for a visit. Would she like that? Would she want to
come?
I hoped so. I wanted her to see my home, where I hunted, all the
things I like to do.
Of course she had been there before with the Cullen’s, but this time I
wanted her to come on her own. Just me and her.
We were at the cottage in no time. Bella must have heard us coming,
because she was standing outside ready to meet us. She gave me a
big hug and said that she was happy to see me.
Then they said something really weird. They wanted me to stay at the
cottage. I had always stayed up at the main house. What was
different now? There was something strange going on, and I swore to
myself to find out what it was...

B.P.O.V.

May 24.
Nahuel was coming today. I was happy to see him again.
But there was something about Edwards plan that I didn't like. I didn't
want to hurt Jake. Except for my family, he was my best friend. My
Jacob.
I knew that he was right for Renesmee. But I could also understand
the way Edward was thinking. Our daughter had been so shielded.
She hadn't really met many boys her age. Well, the way that she had
been growing, it had been impossible.
She could only meet Jakes pack and other vampires. The only
humans she met, was the people in La Push that knew our secret,
and Charlie. So the chance that she would meet someone else than
Jake was small.
Of course her meetings with Nahuel had been special. They shared
something special. On one of our trips to visit Nahuel, she had met
some of his sisters, but they didn't really connect the way that she
and Nahuel did.
Could Edward be right? Was this in Renesmees best interest? I didn't
know. But he had already set his plan in motion. So all I could do,
was watch, and try to prevent any disasters that might turn up.
Suddenly I could hear Edwards Volvo. He drove the new one now,
but he couldn't get rid of the old one. He said that it had some
sentimental value to him.
I walked outside to meet them.
Nahuel had become a good friend to us, and I was happy to see him.
I gave him a hug and told him that he was welcome. It was really
good to see him.
I wondered what Renesmee would think when she saw him. I knew
that she would be happy.
With everything that happened now, I wondered how she would find
the time to enjoy Nahuels company.
Just as long as she was content, so was I.
We told Nahuel that he could stay in our guestroom. He looked
surprised, but accepted.
When he was settled in, and had all his things sorted, we said that we
were going up to the main house. The others would be happy to see
him as well. Happy but surprised.
Well, with the exception of Alice that was. She always knew. She had
most probably seen him coming.
We ran up to the house. They were already waiting for us in the
living room. Alice must have told them to be there. When we opened
the door, they all understood why.
They greeted Nahuel, and said that they were happy to see him.
Alice had also phoned Renesmee, and just a couple of minutes after
we got there, she came in the door with Jake only a few steps behind
her. She saw us all, and was a bit alarmed. She was most probably
thinking that something was wrong.
We usually didn't sit down like this. All of us in the living room. That
was only on special occasions, birthdays and days like this, when we
had visitors.
Then she saw Nahuel. The smile on her face was beautiful. She
looked so happy. “Nahuel”, she shouted and ran over to him. She threw
her arms around his neck and gave him a big hug. “It's so good to see
you. Are you staying long? Please say yes. I have so much to talk to
you about”. Nahuel kissed her on the cheek.
I then saw the expression on Jake's face. He was furious. I saw
jealousy in his eyes, and knew for certain that trouble was coming our
way...

R.P.O.V.

May 24.
I was down at the beach when Alice called me. She said that I had to
hurry back to the house. I was going to ask her what she meant, but
she had already hung up on me.
I got worried.
I told Jake about my short conversation with Alice, and he said that
we should hurry.
He was so understanding.
After we had told my parents that we were getting married, he was
like a new person.
He was more intense now.
That evening he had started to touch me in ways he had never done
before.
I wanted him to continue, but a little voice inside my head kept saying
no.
“Jake”, I had said, “I want this to, but I really want to wait until we are
married.
That would mean so much to me. Is that okay with you”?
He had looked at me with a smile on his face, and said:
“Of course we can wait. I don't want to pressure you into something
that you are not ready for. That will make our wedding night even
more special”.
We ran up to the house. My heart was beating fast. What was wrong?
As I opened the door and saw the faces of my family, I relaxed.
Everything was fine. Nothing was wrong.
Then I saw him. My special friend, my Nahuel.
I was so happy to see him.
I ran over to him, threw my arms around his neck and hugged him.
“It's so good to see you. Are you staying long? Please say yes.
I have so much to talk to you about”.
He laughed. Picked me up, and kissed my cheek.
“Renesmee”, he said in a soft voice, “I have missed you”.
Everyone started to talk now. I was sitting on the sofa with Nahuel on
one side and Jake on the other.
They were both holding my hands.
I was so happy. Both the men that I loved were here. It hit me like a
truck, both the men I LOVED.
How could this be?
I needed to get out of here. I needed time to think. What was I going
to do?
I got up on my feet, looked at my two men, and said:
“Hmmmm, I need a human moment. Will you please excuse me”?
They both nodded, and I walked outside. Edward came out after me.
He had heard my thoughts, and knew that I was upset.
“Oh dad”. I only called him that when I was really emotional, when I
needed his help, when I felt like a little girl who wanted to be
comforted by her father. “What am I going to do? I love them both.
How can I marry Jake now when I feel this way about Nahuel? I don't
know what to do”.
I was so upset.
“Well sweetheart, I can't tell you what to feel, but I can tell you who to
talk to.
Your mother has been in the same situation that you are in now. She
is the one that you should ask for advice.
But I will give you some to:
Spend some time with both of them. Get to really know them. Then it
might be easier for you to choose.
Whatever you decide, I'll stand by you. I'll love you no matter what”.
Thanks dad I said, and walked into the woods. Hopelessly lost. What
was I going to do?

J.P.O.V.
May 24.
As we were on the beach talking about our future, about how happy
we were and that we were finally going to get married, Nessies phone
rang.
It was Alice. She said something that made Nessie worried. She told
me that it was Alice and that we had to hurry up to the house. It didn't
take us long to get there.
What was wrong?
When we opened the door, I saw that all the Cullen’s were there. But
there was someone else there as well.
Another heartbeat. It was Nahuel.
At the same time as I thought of his name, I heard Nessies voice
shouting his name.
She ran over to him and hugged him. She looked so happy to see
him.
And the way he held her tight, like she belonged to him.
The big green jealousy monster grew inside of me. He had no right to
hold her like that.
She was mine. She belonged to me.
She had told him that she wanted him to stay. Then he had kissed
her cheek
I wanted to kill him. He had no right. He wasn't family. I didn't even
consider him a friend.
Of course I was thankful that he had helped to save us all a few years
back, but that was all.
He had no right to treat MY fiancée that way. I hated him for it.
Why was he holding her for so long? He had to let go soon.
I was going to phase at any minute now. I could feel it coming. My
whole body was shaking so hard.
Then finally he let her go. They sat down. I walked over to them, and
sat on Nessies other side.
I took her hand in mine. I needed to be close to her now.
As soon as possible I would ask her if we should leave. Ask her if she
wanted to go to my house so that we could have some time alone. It
calmed me down.
I saw that Nahuel was holding her hand as well, and I got mad again.
Suddenly Nessie got up and said that she needed a human moment.
Then she walked out the door.
That was not strange, but when Edward got up and walked out after
her, I got worried.
What was going on?
Edward had something to do with this. I was sure of it. It was
probably his fault that Nahuel was here.
Could he be so cruel? Did he want Nahuel to be with Nessie? Did he
prefer him and not me?
I thought that we had become close friends since our encounter with
the Volturi.
Everything had changed that day. Edward and I had really bonded.
Male bonding. Hmmm...........
I never thought that he could betray me like this. I could feel my old
hate come to life again. It was the same way I had felt when he took
Bella from me, but this time it was a thousand times stronger.
Did he think that just because they were half human, half vampire
that they were better suited for each other?
I had to get out of there. I was going to explode soon.
I mumbled a goodbye to the Cullen’s, and then I got out of there.
Then I exploded. It was a relief to feel the change. I ran as fast as I
could. I didn't know where, but I knew that I had to get as far away
from Edward and Nahuel as I possibly could. I had to calm down
before I could see Nessie again. And I wanted that to be soon.
I had something that Nahuel didn't, I had my pack. It wasn't nice to
use my friends like this, but as soon as I became a wolf, I told Leah to
keep an eye on Nahuel. I wanted to know what he was up to.
I ran for a couple of hours. Thinking out a strategy. I knew that now. I
knew what I had to do so that I could be together with Nessie forever.
She was mine, and I was going to fight for her. She was worth it...

May 24.
There was a tension in the Cullen house that no one could describe.
Everyone felt it differently.
Jasper would know though, because he could feel all of their feelings.
Jake was jealous.
Nahuel was worried.
Bella was nervous.
The other Cullen’s felt worried to.
But they didn't know why.
Something was going on, and they had to find out what it was.
They would talk with Alice and Edward later.
Right now they had to make their guest feel welcome.......

May 25.
I felt so lost. I didn't know what to do.
I locked myself in my room. I needed time to think. The only one I
allowed in, was Bella.
She had a story to tell me.
She told me that she had been in the same situation that I was in
now. She had also needed and loved two good men. Edward and
Jake. She told me how difficult it had been to reject Jake, but she
said that living without Edward would have broken her heart. So there
was never any doubt about who she would choose.
The only thing she regretted, was that she had to hurt Jake. She said
that she would support me no matter what I decided.
When she walked out of my room, I thought of her story. My Jake had
been in love with my mother.
How sick was this?
I was jealous. Jealous of my own mother.
I knew that I was stupid. She was happily married to my father. I
knew that Jake loved me.
So why did I feel this way? I stayed in my room for two days before I
showed my face again.

May 27.
Nahuel came over to me. He asked me if I wanted to come hunting
with him, and he also said that he wanted to talk to me about
something. I agreed.
When the hunt was over, he took my hand.
“Renesmee. I was wondering if you wanted to come to South America
with me when I go home.
I have so much to show you. I want to show you my home. I know
that you have seen it before, but this time I want to show you my
secret places.
Places I haven't shown anyone before. Renesmee, I am in love with
you, and I think that you love me to.
I just want this opportunity , so that we can explore our feelings for
each other”.
I looked at him.
“I'll have to think about it for a while” I said. “I will give you my answer
within a few days”.
Then we ran back home.
When we got there, Jake was waiting for me. I didn't really know how
to talk to him now, or what to talk to him about. Not when I knew that I
was in love with Nahuel to, and that he, Jake, had been in love with
Bella.
Maybe he still was.
I knew that he had imprinted on me, but his feelings for my mother
had always been strong, so it was possible. Maybe he was in love
with the both of us.
I felt sick. I needed to talk to him, but what was I going to say?
At that very moment I decided to go to South America with Nahuel.
I needed to sort out my feelings for both of them.
Jake looked so happy to see me. I was happy to see him to, so I
asked him to come with me into my room so that we could talk.
“Jake, there is so much I need to talk to you about. But first: I have
been talking to Bella. She told me that you two had a relationship
before I was born.
Is this true Jake?
Do you still love her”?
“Nessie, sweetheart. That was a long time ago. Your mother and I
loved each other, but there were never anything physical between us.
She was too much in love with Edward, and she chose to be with him.
The very moment I saw your face, my life changed. I had eyes for no
one else.
The only love I feel for Bella now, is the love of a friend, a sister. I
love your father the same way, like a brother. You are not accusing
me of being in love with him are you”?
I laughed to myself. I relaxed. I believed him. He never lied to me
“So”, he said, “what is the other thing that you want to talk to me about?
Is it about the wedding”?
How was I going to say this? No matter what I said, this would hurt
him.
“Jake. You know that I love you, and that I want to be with you. But
there is a problem. I have a problem”.
He looked confused now.
“I have certain feelings for Nahuel, and I need to sort them out. He
has asked me to go to South America with him. He has things to
show me”. He looked like I had broken his heart.
“I have to go Jake”, I said, “I need to do this. Please understand”.
He nodded, and then he turned around and walked away.
“Jake, I shouted. I love you”. I followed him outside.
He walked in to the woods. I heard ripping of clothes, and then I
heard a loud howl.

May 28.
I woke up. I didn’t get much sleep last night.
I walked into the living room. “Bella, Edward, can I talk to you
please”?
They came over to me at once, and sat down on the sofa. I told
them that I was going to South – America with Nahuel, and that I
had to sort out my feelings before I could go on with living my life.
Edward said that they understood.
“Just tell us what you need, and we will try to help you as best as
we can”.
They really understood. No one could ask for better parents.
“Thank you”, I said.”Now I need to talk to Nahuel, and tell him that I
am going with him”.
Nahuel woke up an hour later. I told him that I was coming with
him. He was so happy. His eyes were glowing. He had planned to
stay in Forks for a while longer, but due to the circumstances, we
decided to leave tomorrow. He gave me a big hug, and kissed my
cheek.
I had to tell Jake. I hated to do this, but I had to sort out my
feelings.
When he answered, I asked if he could come to the cottage. I
wanted to spend the day with him.
He told me that he could come in an hour. He just had to get
something sorted out with the Pack first. So when we hung up the
phone, I went to my room to pack my things for the trip.
When Jake came, we walked hand in hand to our special place,
the place where he had asked me to marry him.
“Jake, I’m leaving tomorrow, but don’t be sad. I’ll be back soon.
There is something I want to ask you. I know that it is hard for you
to stay away from me for long periods at a time, but I need to go
alone this time. Please say that you understand. I don’t want to
stay away from you either, but this time we have to”.
“Nessie, how can you ask this of me? I have tried to understand
this, but this is just too hard. I don’t know what to do”. He sat down
for a while. “I have a solution. Would it be okay if Leah came with
you”?
“Fine”, I said. Leah and I got along well with each other. We weren’t
exactly best friends, but we understood each other.
We spent the whole day together in our place. When nighttime
came, I told him that I needed to get to bed, because we were
leaving early in the morning. He followed me home and kissed me
good night. Then he left.

May 29.
I got up early. My things were already packed. My family came to
say goodbye to me. I hugged and kissed them all. Jake said that
he wanted to drive us to the airport. I liked that. I was happy that
he wanted to see me off.
Leah sat in the back seat with Nahuel. She was so silent. I thought
it was because that she was sitting next to a half-vampire, and
that she didn’t want to leave La Push. But then I saw her
expression, the way she looked at Nahuel. I recognized that look.
She had imprinted on him. How bizarre this was. Jake was in love
with me. I was in love with Jake and Nahuel. Nahuel was also in
love with me, and Leah was in love with Nahuel.
I was jealous, but since I knew that he was in love with me and
wanted me, I wasn’t really worried, just annoyed.
Poor Leah. Would she ever be together with the man she
loved? First Sam, and now Nahuel. What if I chose him? What
would that do to Leah, and what about Jake? Would they still
follow us, still be around?
I was hurting so many people. I had to sort out my problems fast.
When we got to the airport, I kissed Jake goodbye. “See you soon I
said”. He whispered in my ear: “Hurry back to me. I love you”.
I told him that I loved him to, and then he left. Before he had
turned around, I could see tears in his eyes. I wanted to run after
him, but Nahuel took my hand, and didn’t let go until we were on
the plane.
For the first time in my life, I was exhausted when I got of the
plane. I usually loved flying.
We decided to stay at a hotel the first night, before we began our
trip in to the rainforest. I couldn’t wait to go to sleep. Leah and
Nahuel wanted to stay up for a couple of more hours, so they
went downstairs to get something to eat, and to talk a bit. They
asked me to come, but I was too tired. This had been a couple of
very emotional days for me.
I said good night, and went to bed. I fell asleep before my head
had hit the pillow.

May 31.
It was a beautiful morning. My spirit was really lifted today. I
couldn’t wait to go to see the rainforest again, and Nahuels
house. I was happy I had decided to put all the sad things behind
me, and to really enjoy myself. I also wanted to explore my
feelings for Nahuel.
Suddenly I heard a knock on the door. It was Leah. She asked me
if I was ready, and if I wanted to go downstairs to eat breakfast.
As soon as she mentioned food, my stomach growled. We both
laughed.
We met Nahuel in the restaurant. After a large breakfast, we went
up to our rooms to get our things. We wanted to get started as
soon as possible.
After travelling for seven hours straight, we finally reached
Nahuels house. I was really glad to be here again. He didn’t have
a big house, so Leah and I shared a bedroom. It was okay. The last
couple of days had made Leah and I become really close. She was
a good friend. She told me so many stories about the Pack. We
had a great time together.
Nahuel was a bit upset at first when I told him that Leah was
coming with us. But he didn’t say much about it. As our trip went
on, Leah and Nahuel became close friends as well. Sometimes I
could hear their laughs from a distance, but I just smiled. It was
easy to love them both.
The first week we explored the rainforest. Nahuel showed us so
many different things. We also hunted, and that was really fun. I
had a great time. When I wanted to stay at home to read a book,
Nahuel and Leah went on trips of their own. I could see that their
friendship was changing. It was about time I got Nahuel for my
self so that we could talk. I had postponed this for too long. I had
to sort out how I felt.
“Nahuel, can you take me to your special place today please? I
would like to talk to you”. He looked so happy. Leah decided to stay
at home and do some washing. She had to wash her clothes, and
she said that she would make dinner for us today. We agreed on
five o’clock.
Nahuel and I walked outside. “Run with me” he said, and we sped
of. After an hour of running, he stopped.” We are here he” said. “Look
up”. I did what he said. In the big tree there was a little house. He
had built a tree house.
“This is my special place” he said. “I come here to think, and to get
away from other people. Sometimes I stay here for weeks at a
time. It has only got two rooms, a bedroom and a kitchen/living
room. It is not very big, but I built it so that I could have a little
place of my own. It’s my home away from home”.
“I understand” I said. He looked at me, and I looked at him. He
started to lean over to me, and bent his head down to mine. He
was going to kiss me. I felt my whole body tremble with
excitement. I had waited for this for a while now. Imagining how it
would be. The kiss was soft at first, but then it got deeper. He
licked my lips, and then his tongue met mine in a little dance.
He broke of our kiss, and started to kiss my neck. I closed my
eyes. He started to nibble on my ear. It was really good, and I
started to get really excited now. “Oh Jake”, I murmured. He
stopped, raised his head and looked at me. I had said Jakes name.
“Nahuel, I’m so sorry”. I apologized again and again, but he still
looked hurt. “I, I, I don’t know what to say”. I feel so bad.
He sat down, and then he said: “Renesmee, I have wanted to kiss
you for so long. It was truly better than I had dreamed, but I think
that we both know that if you truly loved me the way I love you,
you would have said my name and not Jacob’s. I think that you
just got your answer. You know who you really want to be with”.
As he said it, I knew that he was right. I knew now that Jake was
the one I wanted to spend the rest of my life with. He was my life.
Nahuel saw it on my face that I had made my decision. All I
wanted to do now was to go home to see Jake, to feel his warm
arms around me again.
“Let’s go back to the house again” he said, and then he started to
run. I ran after him. Wondering what he was thinking.
When we got back to the house, Leah looked at us. She saw that
something was wrong. “You came back fast”, she said. “I haven’t
even started to make dinner yet”. I looked at her. “Ohm, Leah. I
think I want to go home again tomorrow. I want to see Jake”. “Is
everything okay Nessie? Are you and Nahuel…..”? She didn’t finish
the sentence. “No”, I said. “I love Jake, and I want to be with him, I
need to be with him. I know who and what I want now. Jake. He is
my whole life. I can’t wait to see him again, to tell him how much I
love him. I’m going to call the airport to order our tickets, we are
leaving tomorrow”.
“Ohm, Nessie. Do you mind if I stay here for a little while longer.
There is so much more I want to see. This is my first time abroad,
and I want to enjoy myself a little bit more”.
“Leah, you don’t have to ask me if you can stay. I am okay with it.
Just ask Nahuel. I am sure that he will like it”. She came back to
the kitchen with a big smile on her face. She was going to stay.
After dinner we talked for a while. Nahuel and Leah were going to
take me to the airport tomorrow. We had to leave early, so we had
to go to bed soon. I packed before I went to bed. I wanted
everything to be ready when I woke up in the morning. I wanted
to be ready to leave at once. I was going to see Jake again in a
little more than thirty hours. I couldn’t wait.
This time I enjoyed the plane ride. It was a comfortable way of
travelling. Bella and Edward met me at the airport. I was
disappointed that Jake wasn’t here to see me, but I knew that he
would come to see me soon, and if he didn’t, I would go to La
Push to see him.
Didn’t he miss me? Didn’t he want to see me as much as I wanted
to see him? Had he changed his mind? Had I hurt him to bad?

June 10.
It was nice to see my parents again. They were so happy to see
me. When we got home, I unpacked, and told them that I wanted
to see Jake. They asked me to wait for a little while. They wanted
to know what had happened in South-America between Nahuel
and me. I told them that I wanted to be with Jake, and that he was
my future. They said that they were happy for me, and told me to
go to see Jake.
I tried to call him first, but no one picked up. I decided to go to La
Push to find him.
As I ran, I thought of how happy he would be when I told him, and
how happy I would be with his reaction. I couldn’t wait, and ran
faster. When I arrived at his house, I could see that there was no
one there. I tried to find Billy, but he was away to. I ran in to Quil.
He was going to see Claire, but stopped to talk to me. Quil, have
you seen Jake? He told me that I should talk to Seth. He was
already late.
I phoned Seth, and asked him to meet me at the beach. He came
as fast as he could. When I asked him about Jake, he looked
strange. “Seth, what is wrong? Is Jake okay”? I was really worried
now. “Well Nessie, Jake was really hurt when you left to go to
South-America with Nahuel, so he is out running”. He has “gone
wolf”.” Where is he Seth? I want to know”.
“Ohm. He has gone to Canada, but I don’t know where. I can’t see
where he is”. “Oh Seth, I have really hurt him haven’t I? I’ll have to
find him”.
Bella and Edward were at the house when I got home. So I packed
my bag, and went to tell them that I had to go to Canada to look
for Jake. They thought it was a good idea. I had made a mistake,
and it was up to me to fix it.
As soon as I had told them goodbye, I ran as fast as I could. I had
decided to go to see Tanya’s family first. Maybe they knew
something about Jake.
It was only Tanya and Kate at home. The others was away to visit
friends. They were really happy to see me. They offered me a
place to stay while I looked for Jake. They even helped me to look
for him. We started to search for his scent. After the fourth day,
we found it in the forest a few miles from the border. We followed
it as far as we could, but he was gone…

June 15.
I was sitting in the living room with Kate, when we heard a knock
at the door. Kate went to open, and when she came back, there
was a man with her. I could have recognized that face anywhere.
Demetri. I didn’t like him. He was a cruel and sadistic man.
He greeted me. “Renesmee, it is so nice to see you again. I hope
you are well? You smell….hmmmm…… I like it”. I did NOT like it. I
didn’t like the way he looked at me. He didn’t look thirsty, but
more like hungry. What was this? Kate looked worried. Something
was wrong.
Over the next few days, Demetri tried to get me alone with him
several times, but Kate and Tanya tried to help me as much as
they could. Every time I went to look for Jake, one of them came
with me. They never left my side.

June 20.
Demetri had gone to hunt, so I told Kate and Tanya that I would
just go to the nearby woods to look for Jake. I was in no
immediate danger. They offered to come with me, but I said that I
was okay.
I walked outside, and as soon as I was out of sight, I started to
run. I was deep in the woods when I heard a noise. I turned
around and called out for Jake. “Jake is that you? Please answer
me”.
I saw him then. Demetri.
“I have been waiting for you, for this opportunity. Why have you
been avoiding me Renesmee? I only want to talk to you”.
I didn’t know what to say. I knew that I was in mortal danger. One
wrong move and he would kill me. I had to talk to him, to make
him feel comfortable. “Well Demetri”, I said. “I am looking for Jake,
and I need to find him. I have something important to tell him. If
you want to, I can meet up with you when I get back. I will be
happy to talk with you then”.
He looked at me. “Renesmee. I’m sure that you can find the time
to talk to me now. Just for a little while”.
I had to talk to him. “Okay Demetri, what do you want to talk to me
About”? “I want you to come to Volterra with me. I think that you
would be a fine mate for me. You are beautiful, and you have a
great talent. I think that we would make a wonderful couple, and
if I’m not wrong, we will be able to have children as well. We will
have the most beautiful children”.
I felt my stomach turn. I felt sick. Was he really serious? Did he
think that I wanted to be with him after all the things he had tried
to do to my parents? My heart beat frantically. I knew that he
could hear my heart. What was I going to say? I wanted to scream
out an answer. No way in hell, but that would be a mistake. How
could I turn him down without making him mad or hurting his
ego?
“Demetri”, I tried to smile, “I am really flattered that you are asking
me to do this, but I am already engaged to be married. I have
already promised myself to another man”.
He looked at me intensely now, his eyes narrowing.” Are you
telling me that you are marrying that dog? Do you prefer him over
me”? His voice was hard.
Holy cow, what was I going to say now? No matter what I said, he
would be mad. “I am engaged to Jake, yes. We are already
committed to each other. I don’t mean to disrespect you or
anything, but I have loved him all my life, and he is the one I want
to be with. He means everything to me. I love him”.
“But I love you, and I want you. You will be mine”. He started to
walk towards me. I backed up. No matter what, I knew that I
wouldn’t be able to outrun him.
“I am sorry, but I don’t love you. I want to be with Jake. You can’t
change that. I am really flattered of your offer, but I’ll have to say
no”.
“If you won’t be with me, no one can have you. I’ll rather kill you,
than see you with someone else. Especially a dog”.
He started to come at me. I turned around and ran as fast as I
could. He just laughed at my attempt to flee. He ran after me. He
really psyched me out. I could feel him breathing down my neck,
and then pull back a bit. Breathe down my neck again, and then
pull back. I knew that he was playing with me. He could kill me
whenever he wanted. I couldn’t stop. My survival instinct was
strong.
Suddenly I felt his hand on my shoulder. I had to stop. “I’ll ask you
again. Will you be MY wife, or will I have to kill you”? He could see
the answer on my face. I shook my head. I would rather die than
be with him. “I’m sorry” I said. He came at me again.
There was no playing around this time. Just as he was going to kill
me, he was ripped of my body. At first I couldn’t understand how
that could be. Then I saw why.
Jake and Demetri were rolling around on the ground. Fighting for
their lives.
I was so scared. If Demetri won, he would kill Jake, and then he
would kill me.
I wanted to help Jake, but I was afraid that if Jake saw me going at
Demetri, he could be so distracted that he would be killed.
They fought for a long time, but suddenly they were both lying
there, completely still. I walked closer. Demetri had lost a big part
of his neck. He was dead. I ran over to Jake. Why was he so still?
Why didn’t he move? Why didn’t he phase back to his human
form?
I started to examine him. I could smell blood, but from where was
he bleeding? I suddenly saw it. It was from a little mark on his
neck. Demetri had bitten him. I called his name. “Jake, sweetheart,
talk to me please. Love, I need you to wake up for me”.
Suddenly I could hear his low growl. I knew that he was alive, but
that would not be for much longer if he didn’t get help soon. What
could I do? I knew that a werewolf could die if it was bitten by a
vampire. I didn’t have my phone with me, so I couldn’t call for
help.
At that moment an old memory came back to me. Carlisle had
told me that James had bitten Bella when she was still human,
and that Edward had to suck out the venom in her blood to
prevent her from becoming a vampire. That had saved her. Could
I do the same with Jake? Could I suck out the venom from his
blood? I was afraid. Jakes blood was both animal and human.
Would I be able to stop myself?
Carlisle had told me that he could smell it when Bella’s blood had
been clean. Could I do that? I had to save Jake. He was my only
love. I would never find a man like him again. I sat down, sniffed
at his neck, and then I saw the bite mark. I took a deep breath.
Jake moved again. “Hush baby, you have to keep still. I am going
to fix this, but it is going to hurt. Try to stay as still as you can”.
I leaned over him again, counted to three, and put my lips against
his wound. As soon as I could taste his blood, I started to suck.
I could taste that there was something strange with it, but I had to
continue. As soon as I could feel the taste of the blood changing, I
had to stop myself. This was Jake. If I continued, I would kill him.
He started to move again, and I had to calm him down. “Jake my
love, it is all over. I think I got all the venom out”.
There was also something else I had to do, and I had to hurry. I
ripped Demetri’s body apart. I put all his limbs in to a big pile, and
set fire to it. That was one problem solved. Now to solve my next
problem. I needed Carlisle to take a look at Jake. I needed him to
cure him. Had I done the right thing? I thought so, but he was in
great need of a blood transfusion.
I thought of taking Jake back to Kate and Tanya’s house, but then I
would have to carry him through a crowded area, and people
would definitely react to a young woman carrying a gigantic wolf.
So the only solution I could think of was to carry him straight back
to the Cullen house.
I had shelter almost all the way. I just had to cross the motorway a
couple of places. I could do this. I had to. I picked him up. He was
a bit heavy, but not that much that I couldn’t carry him.
I carried him all the way home. I was so tired. I almost fainted on
the doorstep. “Dad, help, please”, I thought. “I need you now. Hurry”.
He was there in a flash. He asked me what had happened. Then
he saw Jake. He picked him up, and carried him inside. He called
for Carlisle. He was there instantly.
They both asked me what had happened at the same time. I
looked at them, put my hands on their faces, and showed them
everything. They looked at me. Staring now. Then Carlisle picked
Jake up, and took him up to the second floor. He took all kinds of
tests. He tested his blood for venom, and checked his heart. Then
he gave him a blood transfusion.
Edward told me to come downstairs with him. We had to call
Tanya and Kate to tell them what had happened. Then we had to
figure out what to do. I asked him to call Kate. I had to call Billy
and Sam to tell them what had happened. Sam and Seth came
over as soon as they could. I had to “show” them everything.
I was so worried about Jake. Would he live? Had I done the right
thing?
When Carlisle came down, we all looked at him. He looked very
serious, but then he smiled. “I think he is going to be okay. He is
still in his wolf form, and won’t be able to phase back before he
gets some strength back, but that will happen in a day or two.
Nessie, your quick thinking saved his life”.
I could finally relax. At the very moment I did so, everything went
black. I fainted for the first time in my life.
June 27.
I woke up. I felt so hot. Jake, Bella, Edward and the rest of the
family were sitting around my bed. What had happened? How
long had I been unconscious for? I heard Jakes voice. “Nessie, love,
how do you feel”?
I felt fine. I was really hot, but everything else was fine. “I am okay”
I said. “Why? Is anything wrong”? Then Carlisle told me that I had
been in a coma for a whole week. I couldn’t believe it. I hadn’t
dreamed, and I always did that. What had happened to me?
Carlisle wanted to do some more tests on me now that I was
awake. But first I needed food. I was so hungry. I decided to hunt.
I wanted blood. Carlisle said that it was okay, but he wanted
Edward, Bella and Jake to go with me. I said that it was fine. Just
as long as I got to hunt, I didn’t really care who came with me.
I needed to talk to Jake as well. How was he doing? Was
everything okay with him? So I asked him: “How are you Jake?
How do you feel”? He smiled at me. My special smile. “I am doing
just fine. You saved my life. Edward told me everything that
happened after I passed out. I was able to phase back the day
after you brought me here, but then you were in to a coma, so I
couldn’t talk to you, to ask you how you were feeling. I knew that
Demetri was going to kill you, so I jumped at him. I won’t let
anything happen to you Nessie. I love you too much. I have been
really worried this week. We all have. I was so scared when you
were in a coma. Scared that I would lose you. Don’t you ever do
that to me again”.
Oh, Jake. I had been looking for you for so long. I wanted to tell
you that I have sorted out my feelings. I only want to be with you.
I want us to get married and have children. I can’t live without
you. I ran around in the woods, calling your name. I am so glad
that you turned up when I needed you the most. It seems like you
do that every time.
I was s scared when Demetri came at me. I thought that I was
going to die, and that I would never be able to tell you how I felt
about you. And then you were there. You came for me”.
“I heard you calling me Nessie. I heard you call out my name. So I
started to run towards you. When I saw that Demetri was there
with you, all I wanted to do was to kill him. Please don’t leave me
again Nessie. It felt like my heart was going to break. I thought
that I was going crazy with missing you. Let us never be apart for
that long again, and let us get married as soon as possible”.
I looked into his eyes. Was it really possible to love anyone so
much? He could read my face. He leaned over and kissed me. It
was the sweetest kiss. He had never kissed me this way before.
Everyone had left the room when Jake and I had been having our
little conversation, but now Edward and Bella came in the room.
They looked at us and smiled. “Are you ready to hunt now? You
must be starving”.
I was. I was so hungry that I was trembling. “Let’s go” I said, and
then we all ran into the forest. After a little while we found our
prey. Edward told me to get the big buck. I needed a lot of blood.
I crouched and started to leap, but just as I was in the air,
something happened to me. I was shaking so hard. It felt like
needles were piercing my skin. Then suddenly I could hear voices.
They were all in my head. Jake, Seth Quil and Embry. I was a wolf.
How could this be?
Jake came running towards me. He stopped right in front of me. I
could hear what he was thinking. How could this be? What has
happened to Nessie? She even looks beautiful as a wolf.
I looked at him, really looked. He was glowing. I couldn’t take my
eyes of him. He was the most beautiful creature in the world. I felt
the stings that had tied us together strengthen. They weren’t
strings any more. They were cables. He looked at me again. I
could hear his mind racing again. I think Nessie just imprinted on
me… And then he smiled the biggest wolfed grin that I had ever
seen. I had imprinted on Jake. I smiled to.
Suddenly I saw my parent’s faces. They looked really surprised.
“Jake”, I said. “How do I phase back? I need to talk to my parents”.
He told me, and we both phased back. How strange this was,
communicating with our minds like this.
I had run a bit away from Edward and Jake to phase and Bella
followed me. We ran back to the house. I needed to get some
clothes. When I had put my clothes on, we ran back to Edward
and Jake. We finally understood why I was so hot, why it felt like I
had a fever.
Bella spoke now. “Renesmee, what happened to you? We need to
talk to Carlisle, but first we have to hunt. Will you be able to do
that without phasing”? I didn’t know, so I ran out of sight, took my
clothes of and phased. I ran back to them.
“Let’s hurry”, Edward said. The other two nodded, and I agreed. This
was going to be interesting. All the time while I hunted, I thought
about this. I had turned in to a wolf. How could this be? I wanted
to talk to Carlisle and the other wolves about this. Especially Leah.
She was the only other female wolf. But then I remembered that
she was in South – America with Nahuel. I had to call her. Maybe
she could help me to sort this out.
The hunt was over. I was full. I ran back to phase again. When I
had put my clothes on, I met up with the others. We started to run
back to the house. When we got there, all of my family was there.
Vampires and wolves. What would they say? How did they react to
this new and unbelievable twist? As if I wasn’t weird enough
already. We had a lot to discuss…..

What is the definition of a family?

I think it depends on the one answering the question.
I certainly had a strange one. Vampires, wolves and
humans, and I was the biggest freak of them all.
I talked to my parents, and the rest of my vampire
family, and told them that I needed to go with my wolf
family to learn all about the wolf way of living. Bella and
Edward agreed with me. They also thought that I should
learn as much as I could. I told the rest of them that I
would tell them everything when I came back.
Jake and I walked outside again to meet with the
wolves. We agreed on running to La Push, as it was the
wolves’ territory. As we phased, I started to think. From
now on, everyone would be able to hear everything I
was thinking. I registered that I could hear the thoughts
of all the wolves. Not just Jakes pack, but Sam’s as well.
That was really strange, because no one else could.
The pack leaders could hear each other’s thoughts if
they wanted to communicate, but Sam couldn’t hear
Jake’s pack, and Jake couldn’t hear Sam’s pack. Well
that problem was solved now that everyone could hear
my thoughts...
Suddenly I heard Jake thinking of me. He wondered why
he couldn’t hear my thoughts. Everybody thought of
something, so why couldn’t he hear me?
Hmmmm... I was sure that he had heard everything I
had been thinking of. How strange it was that Sam was
thinking of me at the same time. He couldn’t hear me
either. What did this mean?
I had been talking to Jake just a few minutes ago. Why
couldn’t he hear my now?
I started to think of my mother and her powers. Did I
have similar powers when I was a wolf? Could I choose
who I wanted to hear my thoughts? I had to talk to my
parents and Carlisle about this later.
Sam was in the lead. He ran to an open field and then
stopped. All the wolves came to a halt. I could hear him
talking to Jake. I heard everything he said. All the other
wolves looked at them, wondering what happened
between their leaders. Every now and then Jake looked
at me, and when he did, so did all the others. They
knew that the two pack leaders were talking about me.
Then I heard Seth talking to me. “Don’t worry Nessie,
everything is going to work out just fine”. I chose to
communicate with him. I told him that I didn’t worry,
and that I thought it was quite cool to be a wolf. When
Quil and Embry heard our conversation, they joined in
as well. I could see and hear that Jake was happy. His
pack had welcomed me into their inner circle.
Sam wasn’t quite so happy. He was actually more
nervous. He didn’t like this latest twist. He didn’t mean
that anyone was to blame, but he worried more how
this would affect their future. I decided that it was my
turn to talk. I couldn’t have surprised them more.
They all jumped when they heard my thoughts. Sam
and Jake just stirred at me. I heard all their thoughts,
but they could only hear what I wanted them to. I could
make the two packs’ hear each other.
Sam started to talk to me. “Nessie, can you hear this?
Can you hear me”? I nodded and answered him back.
“Yes Sam, I can. I can hear all your thoughts”. Suddenly
Jake spoke. “I can hear Paul’s’ thoughts. Are you doing
this”? I nodded again.
Sam and Jake started talking again. What pack did I
belong to since I could hear all their thoughts? They had
to find out. They asked me if it was ok if they
experimented a bit. This was a new twist that they had
never heard of before. I told them that it was ok, that I
didn’t mind. They told me that they were going to
command me to do things, because a wolf always
listened and obeyed their leader.
We decided to phase. I ran into the woods to change. I
knew that I was silly, but I didn’t want them to see me
naked. I knew all about that from Leah. She told me
how hard it was for her when she heard the other guys
thinking about her without her clothes. I didn’t want to
go through the same thing.
As I walked out of the woods, everyone was waiting for
me.
Sam said that he wanted to start. It was ok with me.
Sam looked at me with a smug expression on his face.
It looked like he was sure that I would follow his
command.
He towered over me. He told me to kneel in front of
him, to acknowledge him as my rightful leader.
I heard the alpha in his voice, but it didn’t affect me. I
still stood up right. He tried again, but nothing
happened. I could see the disappointment in his face.
He really hoped that I would follow him.
Jake walked over to us. He said that it was his turn now.
He was really confident. He knew that he was the true
alpha, so he was sure that I would obey him. He looked
down at me with his beautiful eyes, and commanded
me to kiss him.
I started to laugh.” Are you asking as a boyfriend, or as
an alpha Jake”, I said? He looked a bit disappointed. I
had heard the alpha in his voice, but it didn’t affect me.
I told him to ask me something else. He thought for a
bit, and then he told me to run around the clearing.
I didn’t move. Sam and Jake both looked surprised.
There were two alphas, and I answered to none of
them.
We didn’t really understand this, and we had to figure
out what to do. I told them that I wanted to think about
it for a while, and talk to my other family about it. After
that I would meet with them again.
For now, I was a free agent.
I smiled at them, turned around, and ran off. I didn’t
phase back. I ran just as fast in my human form as I did
in my wolf form. It took me just a few minutes to get
back to the Cullen house.
They were all waiting for me, all eight of them. They all
stirred at me. This was going to be a long day, and I
was already tired.
Edward was the one to speak first:
“Nessie, sweetheart, we can all see that you are tired, so
we’ll cut this meeting short and continue again
tomorrow so that you can go to your room and get
some sleep”.
Ah, my darling father. He understood me so well. Not
just that. He COULD read my mind, and knew how I felt.
I looked at my family. “Has Edward and Bella told you
what happened to me today”? Carlisle nodded, and said
yes. “He told us everything up to the point where you
took off with the wolves. After that we know nothing”. I
looked at Edward. “Didn’t you listen in on us”? “No”, he
said. “I thought that you wanted to tell us what
happened yourself, and I wanted to give you some
privacy. You don’t have to tell us anything if you don’t
want to. It’s all up to you”.
“It’s okay. I’ll tell you everything”. They nodded, so I
started to tell them what happened in the clearing.
When I came to the part where I told them that I could
choose who I wanted to hear my thoughts, Bella and
Edward looked at each other.
I continued. I just told them that I wanted to question
them about it later. When I told them about Sam and
Jake trying to command me with their alpha voice and
nothing happened, they all gawped. “That’s it” I said.
“That’s what happened”.
They still looked at me, like I was from a different planet
or something. “What” I said, “what is it”?
“This is really strange Nessie. This has never happened
before” Carlisle told me. He and Jake had discussed the
wolves and vampires lives and legends a lot in the past
years. They shared a common interest in the legends of
their people. Carlisle knew more than I did about the
wolves, and I had been to a lot off bonfires and
meetings to hear about their legends.
Carlisle started to tell us about the wolves and their
heritage. The wolves belong to a pack. There has never
been a wolf that stood alone. Not at least one that
wasn’t an alpha. No one had ever heard about it before.
The reason for me not letting the others hear my
thoughts, most probably came from my parents. But it
was strange that those powers just worked when I was
a wolf. We talked about it for a couple of more hours,
and then Carlisle ordered me to bed. I had to rest, and
this had been one of the strangest days in my life.

June 28.
When I woke up the next day, Jake was sitting next to
my bed. I smiled at him. It was hard for me to stay
away from him. Now I knew what he must have felt
every time he saw me. He leaned over and kissed me.
“Good morning love. How did you sleep”?
“Like a baby”, I said, and smiled at him. I loved the way
he looked at me, like I was his whole world. Well, in fact
I was, and he was mine...
“I’m going to take a shower, and get dressed. I’ll meet
you in the clearing okay”? He nodded, kissed me and
told me that he loved me.
“I love you to” I said.
I thought he had left the room. I was just about to get
undressed when I heard something move.
“You know, I could wash your backside”. It was Jake. I
laughed, picked up a shoe, and threw it at him.
“If you want me to spend the day with you, you have to
get out of my room”, I said. I was still laughing.
He came over to me again. Kissed me. It was a longer
and deeper kiss this time. He was excited, I could feel
it. He wanted me, and I wanted him. Suddenly he put
his hand under my t-shirt and started to rub my back. I
had problems with concentrating now. We were both
breathing heavily.
Then he let me go without any warning, turned around,
and left the room. He left me standing there unsatisfied.
I almost fell to the ground. I had lost my balance.
He could have taken me there on the floor, and I
wouldn’t have protested.
I shook my head, found some clothes and rushed into
the bathroom. The reason: I couldn’t wait to see Jake
again. I wanted more.
For the first time in my life, I was sexually frustrated.
Usually, it took me just a few minutes to take a shower,
but now I had been in here for over thirty minutes. I had
to calm down before I went to see my parents and Jake.
We had to have a serious talk about our future plans
soon. Marriage was high up on my list now.
I couldn’t wait to move in to my own house with Jake,
and for us two to start a family. Actually, I was a bit
uncertain about that part. Would I be able to have
children? I was part wolf, part vampire and part human.
Leah had once told me that while she was a wolf, she
wouldn’t be able to have children. So I had a dilemma. I
would first have to talk to Jake about it, and then, if I
could convince him to, discuss it with Carlisle. He might
have an idea how we could solve this problem.
Enough thinking. I rushed to get finished. Ran outside
where I met Bella and Edward. I told them that I was
going to see Jake. They both kissed my cheek, and then
I ran off to see my love.
As soon as I was out of sight, I took of my clothes and
tied them to my leg. I phased. I ran as fast as I could to
the clearing. Suddenly I stopped. I heard something, a
strange sound. What was it? It sounded like snoring.
I walked closer, careful not to make a sound. It was
Jake. He was deep asleep. He looked so beautiful. I
couldn’t help myself. I licked his face gently. He
stopped snoring, made a sound that sounded like
MMMM, turned around, and continued to sleep.
I could have sat there forever and just watch him sleep,
but I decided to phase back. Since Jake was asleep, and
no one was around, I just turned around, walked a few
steps back and phased.
I started to get dressed. I had just put my pants on
when I felt like someone was watching me.
I turned around. Jake was lying there with his eyes wide
open, and he was staring at me like was a treat. I
swallowed hard, turned around again, and put the rest
of my clothes on.
Before I could move again, Jake was in front of me.
“You know, I could get used to waking up to this sight
every morning” he said with a grin on his face. I blushed.
“I thought you were still sleeping” I said, still
embarrassed.
“Well I was, but then something touched my cheek, and I
woke up.
The sight I saw was so good, that I didn’t want to
disturb you”.
He walked over to me and kissed me. It was the same
kind of kiss that he gave me in my room. How would we
be able to stop ourselves this time? I wanted him just as
much as he wanted me. Would we be able to wait for
our wedding night?
Well, the real question was: DID I WANT TO WAIT???

He kissed my neck, nibbled on my ear. He pulled up my t-shirt, and touched

my breasts. I sighed. I wanted him to touch me all over. “ Oh Jake. Yes, right
there. I don’t think that I am able to wait. I want you so bad”. He looked at
me, pulled away, and then he said: “I think that we’ll have to stop
sweetheart. I want this just as much as you do, but deep down I really think
that you want to wait for our wedding”. What? What did he say? “Jake, I’m
ready. I want you now. I want you to make love to me. We can make love on
our wedding night as well, but I want this. I thought about it when I was
sitting on the plane home from South – America. I thought of this when I
went to Denali to find you. When Demetri hurt you, and I didn’t know if you
were going to survive, I was so afraid that we were going to miss out on all
of this. I want to marry you later, but I want to make love now”. I looked at
his face, and I could see that he was really thinking about what I had said.
I didn’t want to give him the chance to think any more, so I walked over to
him, put my arms around his neck, and kissed him. He kissed me back, but
he was still very careful, so I pulled him closer and deepened the kiss. He
groaned, and then suddenly he picked me up. “If we are going to do this, I
don’t want our first time to be in the forest where we can be interrupted. I
am taking you home”.

He carried me all the way to his house, and straight to the bedroom. He
looked me in the eyes and then he started to kiss me. The kiss got deeper
and deeper. Then he started to pull of my clothes. When I was completely
naked, he took a step back and stirred at me. I blushed. He started to take
his clothes off, but he was still watching me. When he was naked too, he
walked over to me, lifted me up, and placed me on the bed. He kissed my
breasts, and sucked on my nipples. This was so good. I didn’t know where
to put my hands, but I reacted on instinct and put them on his ass. I wanted
to feel him inside of me. When I did that, he looked at me and suddenly he
was on top of me. He started to kiss me again. All over this time. I kissed
him to. “Now Jake, now”. And then he did what I wanted him to. He was
inside of me. I felt a jolt of pain, but he kissed me and started to move
slowly. I started to move with him, and the pain was all gone. All I could feel
now was pleasure. I was in heaven. I was with Jake.
Orgasm… Oh yes. It was the best feeling ever. Jake felt it when I came, and
that only increased his pleasure. It didn’t take him long to come after me. He
stiffened and then he roared. We didn’t move for a while, just laid there for
a little while. Holding each other tight.

After a little while, he picked me up, and carried me into the shower. He
started to wash my hair, my breasts, and my stomach. Well, he washed me
all over. We made love again.

We walked hand in hand into the bedroom. Without a word we put our
clothes on. When we were dressed, we went into the living room. As we sat
down on the sofa, he asked me how I felt. Bliss, pure bliss. I didn’t know
what to say. Words could not describe how I felt how I felt, but I had a wide
grin on my face, so he understood that I didn’t regret what we had done. We
sat there, just holding each other.

My phone rang. It was Alice, and she wanted us to come up to the house
right away. “This is serious Nessie. You have to come now. Bring Jake”. Jake
had heard every word. We walked out, phased and ran to the house. What
was wrong? What was so serious that Alice sounded afraid on the phone?